Last week sometime (who knows, you know how the days can flow into each other!) I was discussing moderation with a good, wise friend (yes, Alana this time I'm referring to the one and only Rebecca!)
It was a long and good conversation about how society is not moderate at all (super-size, watch enter series of TV on box sets for two examples off the top of my head) and it's hard to live that principle. Hence addictions.
I tend to think of myself as a fairly moderate person, food usually comes to mind as my credential for thinking this. I feel like my family growing up had good eating habits (although sugar-cravings I think just come with age, or birthing babies or both, cuz yesterday as I ransacked my kitchen for a quick "sweet-fix" I found my desperate-pathetic-self popping gummy-vitamins, that my kids deemed"yucky". Hey, bonus got my sugar and my vitamin C for the day:)
But then when I really analyze myself I wonder. I'm I as free as I think I am?
At one point he said:
If I think. I think too much.
If I talk. I always talk too much.
If I start reading again. All the sudden I'm reading too much (ie ignoring my kids)
If I blog I blog too much (again neglecting my littletons)
If I clean, I clean too much (not that it shows)
If I talk on the phone...you get the picture.
I take really great things that bring me fulfillment and I get excited by that feeling.
Like right now. I should go to bed and just post this even though it's little all over the place.
One last random thought from that talk on anger...such good stuff.
They shared an experiment, where they interviewed kids right after they got in trouble at the playground. When interviewers asked "Why was you mommy/daddy upset with you?" none of the kids knew. But they all expressed in some way that they felt the upset parent didn't like them. The message of anger was not getting across only the negative emotions were being communicated.
Th reality broke my heart a little. I need to reconsider some of the messages I'm sending my kids. And I need to get to bed, and finish this rambling random post:)