I'm always prepared to feel overwhelming love for my own babies.
In fact, I expect it. Anticipate it. Revel in it.
But I am always surprised, shocked, and unprepared to feel so much
immediate, automatic and unconditioanl love for my siblings babies.
In my head I think: oh one day we'll be good buds and I'll be "Aunty Chelsea" and our relatioship will develop.
Instead, it took approximately a minute and a half of holding "little"(she was 9 lbs, 2 oz!) Kamber Rose for me to be flooded with emotion, and I just feel humbled by her spirit.
She is strong. She pushed against her swaddles blankets, hard, determined, not in a normal newborny wiggly way. She pushed because she knew what she wanted (her mom).
I can't wait to learn more of her strength.
I loved her for no reason. I just did.
God's "unconditional love" at times has been hard for me to grasp. I mix up love with other things like, approval, trust, even gratitude.
Then I hold a new spirit. Fresh from heaven and God whispers.
"Like this. This is how I love you...I just do"
Congrats Mel and Ike!
1 comments:
What a cutie. Where in the world did she put that big baby in her little body? Makes me feel old thought. I remember when she was a baby.
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